Monday, January 07, 2008
HAHAHAHAHAH. Upon the complain from my dear twin that I'm not updating my blog, I shall update. HAHAHA. But then, I don't know what to talk about la. Not very upset now nor super happy or bored, so got nothing to write. HAHAHA. Oh wells, I should probably talk about my orientation. (Oh for those who dunno, I'm not at ADAM'S. It's an inside joke about that. HAHA.)
On the whole orientation was super fun! Cheering, games and mass dance. *I think I really need to go get myself enrolled in some dance class la. HAHA. I can't follow the steps. Super slow at learning la.. haha. but then maybe got nth to do with whether I know how to dance or not la. I'm naturally a slow learner. But it's okay, I'll still learn in the end. HAHAHAHA.* And yeah, got dirty at games, rolling in the mud and getting rotten papaya juice splashed on me. HAHAHA. *Yeah, my sympathy goes to the one who ended up having to wash my soiled clothes - the poor washing machine. I think it overworked...* HAHAHAHAHAHA. okay la. On the whole it was fun la. HAHAHA. esp OG outing, and with our very special OGLs and snrs. HAHA.
Dun want to reveal too much! haha. the rest is for me to enjoy. hahahahaha. Okay, i'm being lame, I know. HAHAHAHAHA. Oh yeah, wanted to go back for campfire, but got last minute meeting to attend. AND THEN PRECIOUS SQUADMATES OF MINE REFUSES TO PICK UP THEIR PHONECALLS DESPITE THE MUCH ATTEMPT TO CONTACT THEM - if not I could have make it back in time to at least talk for quite a bit. HAI~BUT IN ALL THINGS, GOD HAS BEEN GREAT AND WONDERFUL.
IN ALL THINGS, PRAISE GOD - FOR HIS EVERLASTING LOVE, MERCY AND GRACE- FOR WHO HE IS.
woke up @2:15 AM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
My life after Os?
Erm.. Honestly, I haven't exactly felt anything about it.To begin with, I wake up early still, because my body clock is so accustomed to the waking up so early in the morning. HAHA. How did I even manage to sleep like a log till late 11 in the past? I wonder.. HAHA. Not that I'm now a light sleeper, because I'm definitely not. But then, I just wake up like automatically after 6 hours of sleep even though I'm still freaking tired! AHHH!! That's why my headache still persist I guess. HAHA ")
Oh. And I officially hate prom!!! ARGH!!!! So many things to fuzz about! It's like a never ending list of things to do for it. But thankfully, I still fit into my prom dress! haha:D yesterday's class party was okay la.. ehh.. not like we mingled a lot as a class, but yeah at least it was fun screaming. But after that, cleaning up.. OH WELLS. my classmates (other than those who stayed behind) are damn smart. They left after making a mess out of the whole place. So like the decent children we are. We cleaned it up!!! HAHA :) Ruth said we should get CIP points! We swept and mopped the floor! HEEE.. Blame those who kept throwing cakes around and messing up the floor. HINT: MY TWIN! (Smashing the cake on me didnt work, she had to throw it right at my face! AH> and it had to land on Ms Ng when I jumped! HAHAHAHAHHA) Twin, she's so gonna get it! haha
After which, at VIVO, oh manz, the puppy (2 mths old) is so cute!!! For once in my entire life, I don't mind having that dog. Twin loved the other better and if anyone she noes owns it, she gonna make it her god child! HAHA. AHH. I finally walked in that so called children pool la. HAHA. the ground is super hot la. had my feet burning. haha. But the water is super cooling! I loved it. HEEE.. took a lot of photos! toys r us is so fun. haha. I feel like a little girl now. But oh wells. HAHA. the soft toys! hee. i took a photo with sponge bob and patrick!! hehehe. And yeah.. shop and shop and shop or more like window shop, going in to the same few places to try to pick out things for prom! HAI!! walk till my legs felt like they wanted to give way. Oh did i mention, sometime during my exam period, I was in class studying then walking when my legs suddenly buckled and I fell towards the table? HAHA.
Lastly went to my bro graduation ceremony later. HAHA. Not the uni kind la. haha. the kindergarten kind. HAHA. the kids are sooooooo cute when they danced la. HAHA. And well, I think kids can shake better than we do. HAHA. Twin, we definitely need our dancing lesson. Sophia too! hahah. they're so cute. Didnt noe what my bro was doing. HAHA. coz he's dance, he was supposed to hide in some egg shell which was covering his face most of the time. HAHA. But he's outfit is so funny! with all that make up on his face and his ducky hat! HAHHAHAHAHA. why didnt we have all that?
HAHA. and just when I thought that I could throw away all my SS stuff, the minister had to talk abt overcoming the problems of aging pop. E.g. Care for family, taking care of own health.. blah... HAHAH:)
Oh and for the first time in my entire life had I said that a child is not cute! She really had this look that irritates me to the extend that i feel like bashing her up. Hey, she's not deformed la. But just don't know why, her face just gives me the urge to want to hit her, and to strangle her! oh.. I shouldnt be saying that or feeling that at all la. HAI... I love kids, seriously. They're all so cute! haha. but maybe not her. haha. And throughout my whole Os, I saw babies and toddlers nearly everyday in the MRT train after my exams. they're so adorable. and yeah. they wave at us! haha.
yes. And I'm going to adam's JC. haha!!!
woke up @12:53 AM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
All I want to do in life
Is nothing but a lie
AHHH!!! I just want to screamAnd probably take some ice cream.
Maybe that should take away my sudden lost of identity. I mean life suddenly seems meaningless, with all the work and all.
People keep saying we can do it, we MUST do it.Yes I know. I've probably heard that a million times. Now, "If you believe, you can achieve!"
(my favourite quote!)
I mean, I still trust in that. But can I trust that I can?
I'm suffering from severe lack of rest.
Just how many brain cells have I killed?I think I lost count. Okay. I'll survive it! NO WORRIES!!A hyper kid like me won't die of such stress.I love running around, just can't sit stillI think I'm having muscle atrophy. (THOUGH IT'S NOT POSSIBLE FOR GIRLS. Bio taught me that)Having muscle cramps on my shoulders for the past few days.
And today, at my cheek.I got enough reasons to believe, maybe my body is on strike!Hoo! I'm suffering through a time of depression I think. Sitting in a dark room with just a projector all day longHow I miss the sunAlso because I've graduatedAnd have parted with my friends and of course my beloved frellies!And definitely my crazy bunch of classmates! Who makes me laugh and go crazy,AND DO STUPID THINGS!(or is it the other way around?)HAHA! Oh yea, and I'll definitely miss the times when I suffer food poisoning in schooland yet still scream for my a maths textbook! AHH!! Must have been a laughing stock.HAHA. Yet this isn't as worse as when my stomach growl louder than a dog in the PAT That my classmates, a few rows down and above, and of course MR TAN who's teaching,Heard them!!! SO EMBARRASSING! And I'll always remember he said this:"Okay. Recess is coming!"AHHH!!!To my darling squadmates!
Oh goodness, you know how wonderful you are a batch!All the fun and laughter we had together. FOOTDRILL, FIRST AID, RCK, EVAC, OUTDOOR ACTIVITY.THE TIMES AT PEACE HAVEN! Singing, laughing, dancing like mad cows! Making a great din of noiseBUT A GREAT DEAL OF FUN!! *think we shock our teacher! Times at Jervois too. Though not a full squad. And of course not forgetting the pumpings!
Woah! "KNOCK IT DOWN"Great goodness, and burn our hands right?HAHA. And cry together. Go watch movie together.AND YEAH, watch ser cry all the time. AND Moni!Ultimate man! Jump up and cheer like watching the real tennis match like that!HAHA!! SO damn funny. My first time out with my friends, and WOW!!
SO DAMN MEMORABLE.And of course when we step up,We quarrel, but still brainstorm days and nightsHOW TO SOLVE OUR CADETS PROBLEMS.AND also practise day and night for our competitions, preparing for CAC, FAC And footdrill com!Everytime I walk pass the corridor of the red cross room, I'll remember how we use to make a mess out of that place. Got chased away. Since we stayed till like what, 7? HAHA:)And of course our camps, our dear food and beverage I/C, who had made camp food super nice!And duh, our squadoutings! The times at East Coast was most fun!Shouting screaming! Running through geog stuff!And yeah, pouring sea water (salt water) down my wound right!!I've got an infection la!HAHABut yeah, I remember it was that day,That we witness the newton's law: an object at rest will remain at rest. An object at motion will continue in its line of motion in a straight line in the same direction, until an opposing force acts on it.AND WHOOSH! The bike stopped, but out safa flew! Landing flat on the ground!And Shan, all prepared, like the ready first aider she always is!HAHA. and of course times with our ice box ma'am and ice cube ma'am! (I'll never forget you too)So many memories I can't forget through my entire RC life. You all make up a part of me and always will.So I'm so not going to say goodbye,Coz I know deep down the memories we hold WILL NEVER END!And to my beloved friends, Jieling, Gloria and Sophia!What a wonderful time we shared?Ehh. at least it was for me. HAHAYeah, going crazy all the time,I think I contributed to a large part in driving all of you crazy,DIDN'T I?HAHA. But yeah. I'll never forget you!Anyway, I'm not saying goodbye either.Since we have so many things we have to do when we graduate.EH.. Eating at marina bay, playing badminton (though I did it with Jieling, which was super fun, making someone run), going to sophia's house, etc.And yeah, learning tango with sophia, french/ italian/ spanish with Jieling and probably try to get pass mario (sp?) brothers with Gloria :DHAHA!!To my dear pizza (Aza), Madhura, Roohiya, Divya, Ruth, April, Jinghuai, Xinliang and others:You have been a great nice bunch of friends I've met.Especially those sitting around me!Whoosh! What a noisy bunch of people are we?HAHA :D whining all day long I have Roohiya. Who too like to ruffle my hairThen I have the birthday girl Aza with her cat which inspired me to write my cat killing story, and of course whom I betrayed by not putting "sushi" on my class jerseyAnd Madhura, whom I tried all day long to pronounce the "dhu" in her name. And Ruth and Divya, who I dance with together with the others, "I don't wanna be a duck"April, now that I know, scores a strike by looking at the arrows on the floor just like me!Jinghuai and Xinliang, my two lovely sparrows. HAHA :) With xinliang as my so called lover with that pic we took in China, and of course someone who shared the same apiration as me. And Jinghuai, remember my lolli?Before I forget: WANG JIN!! Someone who loves bullying me all the time. Even with that last photo that we took together!! AHH!This final message is to my dear devil? Angel? twin:I'll never forget you in my life.
At least not till we establish who is the angel and who is the devil.Which means forever, since you my dear twin, just refuses to admit the fact that YOU ARE THE DEVIL!!! Who hides behind a facade and make me think you're crying all the time,
when you are just who you are!! And of course who had made me think that YOU WERE A CROOK!! (and freak me out through my whole sec 1/ 2 year sitting beside you)Yeah, and of course, during my food poisoning times.Thank you for being there for me and your great concern.BUT certainly not your "LAO SHI, YING YING YAO SHI LE!!!"Gosh, you know how embarrassing was that? HAHA.(I know I'm physically weak. with all the nose problems, stomach problemsBut I'm so not going to die? WITH THE NURSE IN THE SCHOOL!!!)And yeah, the memorable times we have at your house making cookies?And then tasting the cold vegetables you cooked?HAHA. It was great, really!Oh see, I complimented you. How nice can I be? How can I not be an angel?HAHA.BUT STILL! I'M NOT PLAYING WITH SPOT OR BABY. The day when we went to buy his gift, I was so scared that I nearly wet my pants.Opps! My eyes I mean. On the verge to! SO.. NO THANK YOU!!Mrs Goh's house made me cried, and I'm so not going to do it again!Lastly, I want to remind you my twin. Do be careful when you are wearing heels next time.You know why._I LOVE YOU GUYS_ *girls i mean!
woke up @7:27 AM
Thursday, October 04, 2007
I've just found a wonderful hobby, which really brought me great joy.
To pen down my thoughts and feelings. ALL THANKS TO SS LESSONS!
Not that I feel anything now, but dumb
My heart, soul and mind is numb
What do I feel?
I search deep and feel ill
Sick in this room
Her voice caused my doom
To Sukeerthi I say:
At least I know you are smart
Not like me sitting down here stuck
What should I do I ask?Sit here till dusk?
Oh God, save me.
From this torture waiting to be
I hate wasting my time
And the next bell had to chime
** She's so super brilliant la, think we don't need food uh. Keep us from lunch. Saying things like SS is our FOOD. To that I say, my FOOT!! There's probably other things making me upset with her. (at least I know because she keeps calling us "stupid", "morons", "idiots" and "no common sense") AHHH!!! I cry out!Sukeerthi replies:
And so I sit here enjoying my close friend's poem (if you even call them one)
As the demon she hates rattles on
I am forced to listen
- Agonising, really-
We whine and whine and whineAnd yet nothing like this mattersTo them we are just objects of mockeryAt whom they can look out and laugh at our mockeryI might not be as poetic as youBut I think the pain we share is truely the sameBut as she speaks and speaks
I am just getting more and more weak
woke up @6:02 AM
I open my eyes,Only to find the world so bleak
Where are my hopes I ask,
I search hard but found none
(Not even one for consolation)
Perhaps things have changed,
Life have changed
People hiding behind a facade
One who thinks she's good,
Is often one who does not at all command my respect
To think I led such a life
Since when have I become so skeptical
Growing up itself is fine,
But the growing awareness of just how dark this world is,
makes growing up bleak and disgusting.
-- My life I hold
-- Now that I know
-- Is not to tarnish
-- Nor to perish
-- But to cherish
- DEARLY.
woke up @5:55 AM
Monday, August 28, 2006
Ever wondered what life would be if something miserable hasn't happen? I don't know. Perhaps, we won't even feel happy. Our happiness will be diminished. More than often, we hope it didn't happen, and we live in regrets. But why can't we change our perspective? Think about it. Without these bad incidents, we will never have grown, we will never experience true happiness. If we have everything and anything, our lives smooth sailing, how can we detect any sense of happiness when we don't even know what is pain or loss? Everyone in his or her life goes through trials and pain. Through the loss they experience, they grow. Every trials we experience in life, signifies the embarkment of a new journey, a new stage in life. Every obstacle we go through, is to build us up.
Alright. I guess it is enough. Well I don't know what struck me to pen down whatever i am writing now. Perhaps it will serve to remain me whenever I meet with any failures in life or feel like giving up. Haha. Take joy. I believe we are able to go through what we are destinated to go through. Our inner strength is definitely far more powerful than we ever imagine. The human body is powerful. We can never imagine what it can do. So never underestimate its power.
Life can often be so memorable, so marvellous, so captivating......
woke up @7:31 AM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
FO DOMI BA TIMOR:SINGAPORTO TIMOR
WITH LOVE:
SINGAPOREBack from Timor Leste or else known as East Timor.Is a wonderful place to be in,That can't be expressed through words. The experience is fantastic.Physically and Spiritually.Mountains covered by the clouds, WOW!!!Saw firefly, made a school of friends(Veronica, Alicia, Matthew, Francisco, Agus, Danny, Manual, Amos, Salvedor and one whole school)Got KU by them. Which means pinching on the face [from the older kids]or pinching on the hand [from the younger ones]Had an enjoyable time with all my wonderful Teammates,Teaching english, playing games, Learning Tetum [national language of timor]Singing songs and making all kinds of balloons.Really wanted to thank God for all of them, And for His wonderful plan to group us together.Also, thanks to my wonderfulGor gors and jie jies, For taking care of me.You all have made my trip a marvellous one.Surely He has a plan for all of you.This is surely not a come and go trip, This is not the end,It is only the beginning.Continue to press in.Had a revelation from God about this young nation.He is definitely rising up a young and righteous generation in Timor.He promised to bring His light and His joy to Timor, So that whatever bitterness or bondages will be broken,And the people could be freed.He also said in Jeremiah 4:2"And if in a truthful, just and righteous way you swear,As surely as the Lord lives, Then the nations will be blessed by Him And in Him, they will glory."Yeah... what a wonderful trip.Not only did I hear God speak, But also to see what He wanted me to see.Visions, the Timorese deepest most feeling,The hardship, the way they lived.Will continue to pray. Amen?He also revealed His purpose for my life,And mould my character, my heart, to be set apart for Him.Truely a wonderful father.How can I not make sacrifices for Him, When He had make a huge sacrificeBy letting His only son, Jesus Christ,To die on the cross,To redeem us?But to press in,I really needed His strength.It may be a difficult road,But it would be a much harder road to walk,If I disobeyed.I believe, in Him, I can do ALL things. Just like He had promised in Philippians 4:13.I will press in, for the highest goal, God has set for me.In His might, I will Go.Here am I, Send Me.
woke up @5:38 PM
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Oh men.. first few days in sch hor. very suai leh. so dao mei lar. first day - quite ok lar. got mr josef's wedding invitation.second day - malu. got the student investiture. so boring lar. yea. had to say the pledge in front of so many pple. my face were like damn pale lar.sp malu. especially wif all the sec 4s n 3s. yea. made matter worse. rite in front of me were:mrs lee, mr tan, guest of honour n ALL the teachers. dare not look at them lar. duno where to look.yeah! over le. the dance was quite nice lar. third day - suffering. muscle pull on my thigh. backache. all after yesterday's PE lesson n mass run. had mass run. then first lesson was PE lar. did sit n reach (cannot make it) can't even reach my ankle. ok. then had shuttle run.not so bad lar. then did countless standing broad jump. that cause the muscle pull n backache. i think. yea. had flu the whole day. got it during assembly. so many pple ard me kept sneezing. nose went as red as tomato. wasted countless tissue paper. killed many trees. wat a bad deed.today - usual. had a bit of toothache. lessons were okay lor. quite funny leh. when ms audrey neo came. the whole class were like so damn frightened lar. suddenly all so quiet. first time. 4 a young teacher. the next person wld be mrs neo. lolx. sumthing else happened but shant say it. it was damn funny lar. then went to jervois. teach the little buddies how to read. then rush to rc. so tired. then fall in. had interaction. or rather trash out session. ok. quite fruitful. at least we cleared the misunderstanding between the 2 squad. okay. tired n hungry. ate at 711. went home. haha. slack.
woke up @9:30 PM
